Anonim

My last post was comment on by an anonymous reader... Whay anonymous?... I don't know why some people are hideing behind this word. I'm not intrested to know who are they but at least have the nerve to say your name when you express an opinion about something that you haven't created. It is simple what I'm asking...please, assume what you are writing, your opinion. I think it is the right thing to do.

I disagree with this type of writing an opinion. About your question... the answer is not so simple...there was a time when the answer was verry simple because i felt loved and in love... but when you see yourself put down by the person moust important in your life....it is not so easy to use the "l" word again...it is not about fear or maybe sometimes is... but in the moust cases it is about your soul that is not easy convinced to feel something new... So after that all the love you felt becames hate, the kind of hate that destroys everything in its path, the kind of hate that eats your heart from inside out... It is the release that you feel after hate that makes you stop and wonder if you are able to feel at least one half of all that feelings that a while ago were playing with your mind and soul. Relaxed, full of hope and a little scared you try to meet new people that interact totaly different from what you are expecting and then you wonder..."Is it something wrong with me or the whole world has changed?"... You try and accept every person as it is and try to take every day as it comes because the plans that were build inside your head ... are in ruins now...

I do not know if I can answer the question that the anonymous reader has asked me...it takes time to feel something new, that even if you have beside you a wonderful persson... time to think about what was made wrong, time to find out how much of you is still intact, time to analyze every oportunity to evolve into a new being... so the next time it happens you will be ready... so that you woun't lose any night sleep over it... and belive me... I know it very very very very well....the night is too long when you are not sleeping...

So I prefer not to answer your anonymous question...The answer is for me to know and for the person that is beside me to find out...when?... I do not know yet...

Dj Ryno ft. Sylvia...Enjoy...music can do a lot of good.....

So...thank you

I was listening to the radio when I heard a song that for surely it is or it will be the favourite one for many couples... As always it is about a love song... Sometimes I wonder...if there is not love...about what the f___ am I supose to write. Sometimes it seems that this is the only subject worth writing about, when all you see around is indifference...there is nothing to stop me to write about what I feel, I tresure the moust....
So ...enjoy INNA...

So in the end...

So after many days of hard labour, I have found time to write what I think it will be the last post of this month. The only two subjects that I'm good at writing are love and .... me. The past days I have found a love poem that I never knew that existed....

Love

Why is love tragedy so glorious?

After all..what is love?

It is just another game, the only game that is so painful?

An attempt of human nature for a dream to come true?

A misunderstood power that we can't see, but we can feel?

A drop of rain on a leaf which gives you an esthetic attitude?

A white, fluffy cloud in the sky that shudders and soothes the whole of you?

A sunrise turned quickly in a sunset, first it sweetens you, then it embitters you?

Whispers of an ocean tickling you, making you to hope to end in an eddy of feelings?

A shining butterfly that wraps you around in a strange mist?

Where you can listen to an prologued echo?

An emotion full of passion tempting you to put an end to reality?

The most splendid jewel lightening like an angel's face?

Swinging rays comforting you hiding you in a steam of pleasure?

A smiling fairy who captures you in the unknown?

Time wasted hopelessly, never to be regain?

A flower that withers you!

Ohhhh.....fuck it, love is love and I do not know how can I say what this word means to me......all I know is that I could write pages...on and on about it without repeating myself... Celine Dion...enjoy... no more words.

Pieces...of me...

Every day is the same, the same actions I regret of not taking, same regrets that some times were overwelming but now it seems that they are a long way from my soul. It doesn't matter if I try to deny what my hart says, because I know that my mind has chosen the best way to avoid that my heart to be hurt.

Acum ceva timp am urmarit un film super interesant si anume "Mr. Brooks"... sincer nu se incadreaza in tipologia filmelor care imi plac dar totusi mi s-a parut foate interesant mai ales prin modul in care incepe...o rugaciune....catre D-zeu....care suna cam asa(tradusa in romana):

"Doamne, da-mi seninatate sa pt accepta lucrurile pe care nu le pot schimba, curaj sa le schimb pe cele care s pot schimba si intelepciune, intelepciune pentru a le putea deosebi...Luand asa cum a facut El, lumea asta pacatoasa, asa cum este ea nu cum mi-as dori eu sa fie, avand credinta ca va face ceea ce e bine daca ma voi supune vointei Lui, ca sa fiu cat se poate de fericit in viata asta, si foarte fericit alaturi de El in urmatoarea.....Amin"

No one says it better .....chicanos...

Thoughts...

Thoughts about the past, thoughts about the future, about me and the world that spins around me without knowing what the real purpose of existence is. Maybe it is not enough to try your best, maybe it is better not to think about what are you going to do tomorrow and it is better to take every day as it comes with good or bad events that will influence your life for sure.
I think this is as well as it gets, and if it is so….I’m not happy so I will try to make it suitable for my state of mind because I do not want to turn into a very serious person that does not know how to smile. In my opinion a smile is everything sometimes even if you do not feel like smiling(as I wrote in a previous post). There is no order between good and bad things that can happen.
As I look around me I see a lot o things that I must be thankful for, so is only one way that you can abandon this blue state of mind so…THINK POSITIVE

Chestii

There are some times in life when you wish that the time should stop for you, when you wish that nothing will change about your life except maybe the perception of other people and events that take place around you. There are times when you wish the time should pass faster because it seems that bad things would not stop until someone with great power is convinced that you don’t have any pride left, and you are down on the ground with your teeth clenched… Then you realize that there is no one that can help you except yourself so for a moment in time you think: “Wait just a minute…. I’m a fighter, I can not let myself to be pushed around and steped on…”… After a moment of great lucidity, you pick up your hopes, your smashed dreams, your broken heart, your destroyed ego, your trust in human kind and begin to prepare for a new jurney that
will bring you God knows where but you are willing to try it no matter what happens.

So some times it happens and that is one time in life, that you get lucky and you meet a person that is something like your image in opposite gender, so she is smart, she is beautiful, she likes almost the same things that you like, she even has your same blood type…and you feel that this is the person that you were waiting for all your life, you feel like you know each other for a lifetime…. So in that moment you stop for a moment and ask yourself: “How is this possible? Is it real? Is my time to be happy?”. It seems to good to be true but with small steps you try to get back in life…
Everything seems so unreal it is so beautiful to see that you are capable to feel something you did not think that it is possible… Step by step you fall inlove with this girl that takes your heart in her hands and with a shy look in her eyes tells you that she will take care of your scared heart. With fear in your soul you try to take this new relation day by day so you don’t miss the important moments.
In that moments you feel like have been born again, like the power of a feeling long lost has gave you wings, you feel invincible…but then again that is how a person inlove should feel. You look at the sun with other kind of look on your face, this time is careful look, a look that will not make you suffer again… so the hope of a real life begins to appear. Nobody knows how, when or where but belive me the only feeling that remains after a period of suffering is HOPE…

So when you find a real and "live" person you try your best to make her feel special, to make her feel alive... The person I'm talking about knows who she is an I'm sure that she feels how important she became in such short period of time...so I won't tell all of you her name...My heart is with her allways and she is in my heart.

New post

Today i felt like writing in english so i took my pen and a sheet of paper ... My state of spirit is not so fly becase sometimes beside the real tiredness acumulated along this year they are a lot of factors that contribute to my low state of spirit...As usual i could write about all kind of things and feelings but my favourites topics are, as you already know, love, human relations and ignorance...

I don't have a real reason to feel so blue but the small things in life that hurt the most especially if the hurtful gestures come from the person that you consider to be your soul mate, your reason to live, the only light of guidance in this dark world that we are live in... Sometimes all the things that we do for our loved ones are not enough or so they let us belive...i do not know how can they be so insensibly cold towards the person that they sustain to love... What is love anyway?

It is true that each person can love according to his/hers character and because someone doesn't love you the way you want it doesn't mean that him/her does not love you at all... but sometimes, belive me, the feelings must be shown regardless of concourse.

That's all for now...I hope my state of mind hasn't affected you very much and i want to apologise for any mistakes that you discover in my writing...

What do you think?